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Mark still an Alcoholic

I have almost given up on my blogging but I must remember that it is important to stay in touch so others can join me in my recovery ,you know it is not good not to blog just because things are starting to go well so I make amends to all and will tell you my recent experience strenght and hope.

As you know I am a chronic relapser !good news I am still sober I have attended daily meetings at least two a day . I am doing well with recovery and I am now working and that is a miracle!

Let me tell you what I am doing I am working for a company run by people in recovery a true gift I wont use the name yet ,we worked with recycled luxury product and the ultimate profit goes to a twelve step programme .

I think the hardest thing for me to deal with is living in the real world ,the first event I was at was a booze fest I am extremely fortunate that my boss is in recovery and other fellows in my meetings were at the event.I have had the obsession lifted from me but I must never forget I am still as close to a drink as when I stooped .

The meetings in the bank are great but it is deadly important that I continue with daily meetings .My recovery has to come first and working with other recovering people is great my direct boss the president of the company is in recovery and he understands me .I have been running a lot of meetings lately and I have many commitments to the programme ,I truly enjoy my recovery and I am blessed with new beginnings .I am however reminded daily by Hunter that the damage needs to be delt with I think this is truly a problem for recovery as you have to take responsibility for your actions and that's tough.

I am starting to get a little grounded and some serenity however I do still act out and need to work with my sponsor although he is a moody bastard to learn to live ,understand and be aware of others .

The true gift is knowing I don't have to drink any more and that I have a plan that my higher power is running and not me it seems to work better that way. The real gift is in the family recovery and the making of new friends which is great when I was drinking I really did not have any true friends. Friends from the rooms bring me lunch ,coffee we talk and we are all smart guys it really amazes me what happens to the great minds when we put poison in the system.

I am going to break now because I am at work what a great thing I have many more things to tell but most of all try for today not to pick up that first drink!its that one that starts the chaos!

Thanks Mark alcoholic!

Good Orderly Direction and OK

Hello from Hunter.

Living in a relationship with a partner in recovery gets better each month they are sober. I talked with Mark today about his behaviour a few months ago when my family sent a check for our son so he could get a Wii. I never received the check-Mark cashed it and threw away the note without showing it to us or telling us. His recovery back then was to spend the money on things we needed and not to feed his addiction. Today with additional months of sobriety he would not cash the check. He would give it to us and show us the note. It was horribly embarrassing when this happened a few months ago...I am grateful we are past that stage. Actually things are so much better and more normal today that I sometimes wonder how much better can it get...I look forward to the wonderful surprises in store for the future.

I started a new part time job to supplement my other one and worked a few hours this weekend. I am working with someone in their home. It is incredible to be in a peaceful family environment...Although I currently live in one, it is still hard for me to believe that this is normal for most people. Anyway I like my new job and the person I work for and I believe it will move me in a Good Orderly Direction in my career.

SO What is GOOD ORDERLY DIRECTION???? It means much more to me today than it did in the past. In general Good Orderly Direction (acronym GOD) means things are moving in the right direction, according to God's plan, and life is getting better one day at a time...OR life is good and going well....

What does it mean when we say we are OK? It means things are not so great but we are accepting them as they are. OR I wish things were different but won't really tell you how bad it is....

I pray that things continue on in our life on the GOD path rather than the OK path..

Sometimes I think when people say things are OK they are not grateful for what they have and always looking for the next best thing. When things are on the Good Orderly Directio path they have accepted what they have and not what they don't have and are moving forward with their lives rather than standing still.

Until tomorrow

Hunter.

P.S. Mark is promising to blog tonight...Shall we bet on it?????