The dark side

Mark Alcoholic .

I was just thinking ,not good for AAs to think! But my son is very smart. Whenever I rage and I really hate it he just tells me its my dark side. I do believe that when we drink we change totally like Jekyll and Hyde .

Alcoholism is a rampant illness. I have started to hear people call this an illness. I am reading about my genes and trying to find out what has caused me to be in so much anguish. I don't know if it is in the genes but I will be posting an article about Alcoholism and our genes written by John Nurnberger Jr. and Laura Jean Bierut and published in the Scientific American. I think then notion that alcohlism is in our genes is just another excuse but I must research all parts of this thing I am at war with so I am fully equipped to deal with it.

I am getting excited now because Hunter and my son will be back soon and I can't wait to see them. That is funny as I remember when I was active and I could not wait to be alone so I could just drink. Believe me it is not like that now .

I hope she is not angry with my blog it is after all my true feelings.

That's it for tonight, may your Gods go with you!


Mark .