The grind

Mark alcoholic,

I am alone for 2 days ,Hunter has gone to the Hampton's,I am just not ready for that yet ,people places and things.I am in a good place today safe sober and working very hard on my recovery.

I really did not plan this but it has happened and I have to look forward ,my past is part of who I am my character and I cant change that.My sponsor has been telling me to look for the good in myself and focus only on today for recovery and the future as I start to live a full life.

I have been attending meetings daily and last week I had some ups and downs but that I am told is normal.I ran my little meeting Friday and it was fun to be able to make people laugh at some of my antics and to help the group stay sober for 24 hours.

I wanted to share something funny but that depends how you look at it ,I never like to see a fellow AA suffer at the men's meeting on Thursday called the Rolex meeting one of our very sober members with 20 years sobriety was pontificating about the programme the trees and the rivers he is a nature nut and at the end of his share at 7.45 am he said one of us need to pick up today if we don't want to and we can have a sober day a friend of mine said it was to late he already had started drinking ,the way it came out was very funny but also a painful reminder of the disease of alcoholism and as a chronic alcoholic I could totally understand I have done the same thing many times and I am not a saint!

The amount of meetings and numbers of people suffering and recovering in my town is mind blowing I have a choice of at least 4 early bird meetings every day and then others all through the day so there is plenty of help for us if we need it.

The areas of recovery I have worked on this week are honesty,acceptance,and gratitude all very important for me and. composure a big one .

Friend from AA calling got to go .

more later Mark alcoholic.