I MISS HER SO-Excerpt from another blog

In March of this year I started a journal about my mom. The first entry was written in March and was entitled "I miss her so" It's contents are below. The difference between now and then is that I can not go and see her.. But in some senses I am more with her now than before. Here is the entry:
from March 2007
I miss mom so very much. I see women 84 on TV with their minds in tact and I wonder why not my mom.....why...I see books and stories about mothers and daughters and how they talk everyday...I always talked to my mom everyday...I looked out for her for so many years after my dad died. We fought so very much and yelled and screamed...it was horrible.. But we loved so very much.. She always knew what I liked and what was best for me and always helped me. She loved to shop and always left out clothes for me on my bed that she thought would look good on me...They always did and I wore the heck out of them...Funny-I married someone who does the same thing. I guess I am lucky we shared this and I know I will always be grateful for the days and times we shared I will always wish there were more of them....It is springtime and as I look outside I see birds chirping and looking for food on the sill leafless trees. Springtime is rebirth and in so many ways my life is in rebirth this year. I pray i make the best of it."

Today it is not Springtime, it is Autumn. The leaves are resplendent in color and there is a gentle peace in our home. Mark has taken the afternoon off and is resting, our son is home and relaxing, and the rain is pelting down outside. It is a very strong rain-one that has swept most of the country and even caused several tornado's.

A dear friend of mine once told me that rain after a sad event, like the passing of a loved one, is a reminder from the Universe and God, that all is well. The rain makes everything clean and ready for a new start....In the case of the weather we have and are experiencing, I believe it is a powerful one from my mom and dad, and some other very famous and powerful personalities who have passed recently. A message that all is well but that we have to wake up and take care of our planet.

That's all for now..

Warmest,

Hunter